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Stubble update: Still stubbly.

What else... cold, still... Kai says that the Fire in me keeps on getting smaller and weaker every day. I think I'm being punished for not letting Her to finish with him. Or maybe She's just playing with me.

Just ... so cold. I don't know what to do. I'm wearing like six layers of stuff and I'm loosing feeling in my fingers. I can't work like this.

I'm scared too. I suppose I should talk to Her but I'm scared too.

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I burned my hand... last night... I never burn myself... not since I learned how to control my fire elemental abilities. That was one of the first things they taught. After all what good is a fire wizard if he can't touch fire? But I burned myself...

I was sitting... trying to get warm... Kai all around me and I stuck my hand in him... and it burned! Never mind the fact that was something an amature would do... but I don't even want to know how Kai's feeling, knowing that he burned me. It was a bad burn too.

I'm loosing my fire ability... it's just dying. I don't want to loose it. It's throwing my body completely out of whack..

I have to go and talk to Her.

I don't want to though... She scares me...

Into Chaos.

She stood in front of him eyes a swirling never ending vortex of blues and greens and she was Kit and he laughed at him. Dragging one hand down the chest he laughed at Alec as he was Teena and she pressed a kiss against him, “My little puppet you don’t want to play?” she purred, twisting her fingers in his hair, dragging her tongue down his neck watching as he shuddered in fear. She pushed him down and Kai smirked down at him just like Jono used to do and there was a knife in his hands coated in flame and the flame danced across Alec’s naked chest burning him, hurting him as Kai laughed and laughed. It was so funny. Don’t you see you can’t ask anything from me. I won’t give it to you, you can’t have it not unless you give me something that’s the way these deals work. I give you power you give me your life you’re mine, my puppet. So what will you give me to have your Fire back? What will you loose? I can hear all your little thoughts they’re right here, can’t you see them dancing for you, dancing for me I think I’ll no you don’t want anything to happen to your little baby girl isn’t that sweet the annoying little egg should crack open so early and she should die burnt to a crisp and then what would you do. She asked this as she was Verra and she laughed and laughed She thought everything was funny, wasn’t it funny? And he cried and tried to curl away from her he didn’t want to be brave he just wanted to go home. He just wanted to be okay. To be normal, is that what you want to be normal no more chaos no more me no more seeing the stars as they dance you just want your Fire back you sad childish little thing you dare ask for something from me. Go away.