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Oct. 23rd, 2006 01:02 pmI've been feeling kinda off. I suppose that's reasonable, giving that my wife and kids were killed recently. Murdered... something. I don't know.
Been feeling all sorts of conflicty sort of emotions. Restless. Tired. Drained, exhausted, full of energy, needing to do something anything, just wanting to curl up and die.
Lots of thoughts on dying.
Which is rather useless because pffft... three days later here I am again.
Maybe I could try offing myself in strange and unusal ways. Hah. Kidding.
Mostly.
I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know where to go, what to do anymore.
Feel lost.
Been feeling all sorts of conflicty sort of emotions. Restless. Tired. Drained, exhausted, full of energy, needing to do something anything, just wanting to curl up and die.
Lots of thoughts on dying.
Which is rather useless because pffft... three days later here I am again.
Maybe I could try offing myself in strange and unusal ways. Hah. Kidding.
Mostly.
I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know where to go, what to do anymore.
Feel lost.
