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It's been awfully quiet in my head since I got my powers bound. Its been driving me crazy, I can't understand how people stand it.

Teena was partially right when she said it was my lack of empathy. I don't have that constant buzz in my head of people's emotions. Makes it harder to figure them out. But what's really bothering me is that I can't hear the elements. They've been there ever since I was ... well ever since I could remember. A calming background song that infused my very being. It was a constant reassurance that I was alive. It was in my dreams, in my waking hours. Always waiting for my beck and call. Able to wrap around me, comfort me.

I also can't hear, sense, the strings and harmonics of the multiverse. That was from my chaotic powers. Teena knows what I mean.

It's a punishment back home. The last resort punishment. To bind someone's powers. Cut them off. I mentioned it to Kisara... or Irvine... I don't remember what he was at the time. It's only been done five times since I was born. Four of them committed suicided afterwards. The fifth's a stable hand at one of the Inns. One person found out that it maybe done to him and he fled the city never to be seen since.

I don't think I'm going to kill myself.

I hope I'm not going to kill myself.

I mean I am gonna get my powers back.

I am.

I have to.