Why?

How can you be with someone after you let them be wiped out of existance? How can you look at them in the eye, let them touch you, talk to you when you willingly gave them up? How can you let them know that it was because of someone else, not you, that they still exist? I mean doesn't that sort of sound like you don't care about them at all.

And what if you aren't sure if you care about them? How do you know? Especially if you were willing to let them never exist.

How do you look at yourself in the mirror?

Should you even look at them. Go to them? Be with them?

And how do you deal with something you thought was dead and done, but apparently was barely just healed, and not very well?