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Alec Troven ([personal profile] element_wizard) wrote2004-09-19 08:38 pm

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I'm feeling very conflicted right now.

Part of me wants to wail and cry like a baby and get horribly smashed.
Part of me wants to hunt Archer and Teena down and kill the both of them.
Part of me says I should be at that wedding right now.
Part of me wants to go to the wedding and completely ruin it. Just make a horrible disaster of it. Sword waving and lots of blood. Maybe kill some of Archer's relatives. Lots of screaming. A complete massacre.
I also want to scream. Alot. I want to rant and rave and complain about how unfair it is. But I can't.

I think I'm going to cry.

[identity profile] elementwizard.livejournal.com 2004-09-20 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
Well yes. This is my problem. I realize it. I know I shouldn't be feeling these things or thinking these things. I want to be happy for her. I really really really want to be happy for her. But for some reason I can't be. I don't know why. Maybe it does mean I'm an insensitive jerk. I don't know. I can accept that she's with Archer. I know that, I can't do anything about it. I shouldn't do anything about it. I just can't seem to be happy about it.

[identity profile] agent-artemis.livejournal.com 2004-09-20 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
Being okay with it, and feeling like you want to murder his family...Sorry, that's just not sounding like you're okay with it at all. I honestly don't expect you to be overflowing with happiness about it. I'm not that stupid. But this is so far from happiness that you couldn't hit it with a ten mile pole.