Never mind. I'm going to go beat up things in the gym for a while. I need it.
If you want to talk to me later, you know where my center is. If you don't have anything to say to me, then you can just fuck off.
I'll translate that into nice plain terms for you, since you probably don't have a good handle on my way of expressing myself. You seem to have bundled up all of your bad feelings and decided to let them loose by screwing over canon characters. Canon characters that I have sacrificed blood, sanity, and probably most if not all of the rest of my life to protect.
If that means nothing to you, and you think that it's not too much to step on in order to make things peachy for yourself, then I've been wrong about you. If that's the case, then I can only blame myself for the hurt. I'll live, and you can go fuck yourself.
If it's not, and you do care, then you'll get your godddamn act together and take responsiblity for what you did and do something about it. Something that doesn't involve you moping for months about how you're weak and there's nothing you can do about. There's always something you can do, if you're not too lazy to find it.
You can say what you want about me. I'm a bitch, I've been told so, and I'm not the best person in the world when it comes to helping people with personal problems. Even people that I care about. It's just not something that I'm good at... but if someone I care about needs me, I'm there. I may not be able to do anything but kick the ass of someone who's causing the problem, but I'd do that much.
Just because I haven't been holding your hand every day and telling you so, I've cared about you, even more so after I had to deal with your five-year old incarnation. I still have that picture you drew for me on the weapons locker, and it's laminated so that the minis won't scorch it. I don't know if you've been like a son to me, maybe more like a godson.
Which is why I can't really take it right now if you want to tell me that you don't give a damn about thumbing your nose at my life's work. I'm doing a lot by admitting that, I hope you know... This is hard for me.
After I've thoroughly exhausted myself, I'll be in a better position to take that from you. My cynical, pessimistic side will take over completely and file it away with all of the other things that have caused me psycological and emotional distress.
Either way, I need to let off some steam before my blood pressure gets to dangerous levels.
I have no intention of moping about for weeks on end. I have already offered to make amends to those that I did offend and have distributed all photographs back to their owners so that they may do with them what they will. I have also went willingly with Captain Carrot when he desired to arrest me and was turned into a ferret.
As for the actual act itself, I made sure it was contained to the Nexus itself and that it wouldn't get out into the canon worlds. If I had thought for one moment that it was going leave the Nexus itself, I wouldn't have done it.
And to be quite frank, I would rather gas the nexus a hundred times then harm any of you, physically or with my endless whining. Having interacted enough with the nexus people I can say that a lot of them have moved on from canonness into fanon. They aren't original characters, but they are no longer what they were. More like interpitations or AU's.
I would NEVER gas a canon world. If I thought for a moment that a Norman Osborn who doesn't mind being a woman and would marry another man was canon, I wouldn't have gassed the Nexus.
That's all I have to say for now. We can and should talk more later.
But I have a party to go to at home. And I'm already late enough as it is.
Although Talia is very resolutely not paying attention to this thread anymore, I'll tell you right now that it doesn't matter to her if the canons at Sages are mainly really AU. It doesn't matter that other people scew them up on a daily basis. Other people aren't you, aren't PPC agents. A canon character is a canon character, and no PPC agent should be responsible for mucking them up any more than they already are. Especially not by turning them into the very thing that agents are fighting in the first place.
I am glad that you made amends with those at Sages. I just hope that you'll find a way to do the same with the PPC side.
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If you want to talk to me later, you know where my center is. If you don't have anything to say to me, then you can just fuck off.
I'll translate that into nice plain terms for you, since you probably don't have a good handle on my way of expressing myself. You seem to have bundled up all of your bad feelings and decided to let them loose by screwing over canon characters. Canon characters that I have sacrificed blood, sanity, and probably most if not all of the rest of my life to protect.
If that means nothing to you, and you think that it's not too much to step on in order to make things peachy for yourself, then I've been wrong about you. If that's the case, then I can only blame myself for the hurt. I'll live, and you can go fuck yourself.
If it's not, and you do care, then you'll get your godddamn act together and take responsiblity for what you did and do something about it. Something that doesn't involve you moping for months about how you're weak and there's nothing you can do about. There's always something you can do, if you're not too lazy to find it.
You can say what you want about me. I'm a bitch, I've been told so, and I'm not the best person in the world when it comes to helping people with personal problems. Even people that I care about. It's just not something that I'm good at... but if someone I care about needs me, I'm there. I may not be able to do anything but kick the ass of someone who's causing the problem, but I'd do that much.
Just because I haven't been holding your hand every day and telling you so, I've cared about you, even more so after I had to deal with your five-year old incarnation. I still have that picture you drew for me on the weapons locker, and it's laminated so that the minis won't scorch it. I don't know if you've been like a son to me, maybe more like a godson.
Which is why I can't really take it right now if you want to tell me that you don't give a damn about thumbing your nose at my life's work. I'm doing a lot by admitting that, I hope you know... This is hard for me.
After I've thoroughly exhausted myself, I'll be in a better position to take that from you. My cynical, pessimistic side will take over completely and file it away with all of the other things that have caused me psycological and emotional distress.
Either way, I need to let off some steam before my blood pressure gets to dangerous levels.
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As for the actual act itself, I made sure it was contained to the Nexus itself and that it wouldn't get out into the canon worlds. If I had thought for one moment that it was going leave the Nexus itself, I wouldn't have done it.
And to be quite frank, I would rather gas the nexus a hundred times then harm any of you, physically or with my endless whining. Having interacted enough with the nexus people I can say that a lot of them have moved on from canonness into fanon. They aren't original characters, but they are no longer what they were. More like interpitations or AU's.
I would NEVER gas a canon world. If I thought for a moment that a Norman Osborn who doesn't mind being a woman and would marry another man was canon, I wouldn't have gassed the Nexus.
That's all I have to say for now. We can and should talk more later.
But I have a party to go to at home. And I'm already late enough as it is.
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I am glad that you made amends with those at Sages. I just hope that you'll find a way to do the same with the PPC side.