element_wizard | (no subject)

In his defense, I'm not at all sure he was entirely sane at the time. It's the only reason I haven't told Verra or the SO yet.

*reminds herself not to bite the heads off of innocent people**this is much better than she would have been able to manage two years ago*

Too late for that. SO already knows. Hell if I know what kind of trouble this is going to get him into, but I imagine that it's not going to be pleasant.

I'm not entirely sane anytime, I might point out. I've been an agent for over three years now, four if you count time I've spent in training, Chem. I am homocidal and bitter beyond sane or insane amounts... but I never forget why I'm like this. I'm like this because I've been dealing with Sues for too long, and I've been doing everything I possibly can to de-rail the little buggers from screwing up canon left and right.

You may not know this, but this is not the first time Alec has Sue-d someone. He's done it before and he's seen what happened because of it... a lot of headaches, a lot of mental scarring, and various other unpleasant things.

I've known Alec for a long time. As long as I've been an agent.

I am TIRED of hearing excuses from him. I'm sick and tired of it. Tired of hearing his excuses as to why he still has fits where he acts like a Stu, tired of hearing how he's mucked about with canons just for his own fun, tired of hearing how he's hurt people I care about, I'm tired of hearing how he's turned a roomful of canons into bloody Mary Sues. I have to deal with this shit, pardon my French, from someone who's supposed to be on my side. Someone who's supposed to care about me in some vague and temporally strange way.

It feels like being betrayed, that's what it feels like. It feels like being stabbed in the back just because it seemed fun at the time. Maybe you know what that's like, maybe you don't... Hopefully you won't, because it sucks and it leaves a person feeling awfully bitter. I've already got enough of that feeling to last me two or three lifetimes.

I meant sane relarive to his normal state. I dunno if you heard, but *drops voice to a whisper* he was involved in a rescue mission on his own world that, um...didn't go well, and he was forced to do some things that no parent should ever have to do. I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop for days, since I saw him that first night he was back. Chaos will only tolerate so much before all Hell breaks loose. *Returns to normal speaking volume.* I'm not excusing what he's done, just questioning whether he was himself at the time. As horribly wrong as this was, I'm kinda relieved it wasn't worse. Nobody got hurt, and the effects were temporary. It was still horribly wrong, and I can't blame you for feeling betrayed. On the bright side, we now seem to have a drug to treat temporary Sueness. Fin hasn't finished it yet, but it sure worked wonders on me. Man that sparkly!Link-in-Pink was disturbing...

Alec, you owe a lot of people a very humble, very formal, and, above all, very sincere apology.

I have heard, thanks. I've seen a lot of damn things that no one should have to see... No, it doesn't excuse what he's done. Yes, it's horrible, and yes, I can understand why he'd be torn up about it.

Tch. Whatever... I'm not going to stress out about this anymore than I have to...