I know it's hard. Been there, done that... Though luckily I've never had as much of an inclination to wangst as you do.

I don't think I can help you with that, unfortunately. I don't know what you can do because I'm not there, and it's hard for me to say what would make you feel better. Distraction would probably be good, whatever the case. It's a little easier to deal with things once you've had some time to calm down.