You have to be yourself Alec. It can be traumatic, dramatic, or chaotic, but you have to be yourself, to grow, to strive. Stand still too long and you stagnate.

And your house? Is it just a building now? Is there nothing about it that gives you pleasure, not even pleasurable memories? If not, do what I did. I burned my house to the ground and started over. For my future, not my past.